What to say? Not much improvement overnight. I go to bed feeling okay, and then wake up in pain. This must be due to the pain meds wearing off overnight. It does not feel good to take that first step each morning. I experienced some sharp, sharp pains in my knee with that first step and they didn't go away until the percocet had kicked in while I was sitting at my desk in the office. I've somehow managed to stretch my three day prescription in to four days now, but I will be out of the pain meds tonight. It should make for an interesting and painful weekend.
I'm still feeling pretty tired today and also down in the dumps. Just pissed that another trip has been cancelled due to this blasted gout. So, here I have one of my only long weekends of the year in front of me and what will I be doing? Sitting on a goddamn couch doing nothing. It just feels like a neverending cycle of of living in pain, going to the office, coming home to do nothing - and there is no end in site. This is my life. There is nothing rewarding about it. Nothing to be excited about. Nothing to look forward to. It's a pretty bleak outlook, but it's all I see right now. I know that being in the office instead of heading to France has a lot to do with this right now, but I just don't see how much is going to change in the near-term. I don't see any way out of my job right now and the job is not helping things at all either. I've been doing what I'm doing for too long and just wish I could find a job and setting doing something I enjoy doing. Something where I can wake up each day and be excited about starting the day instead of dreading what's in front of me.
Like I said, bleh. Maybe I'll be more cheerful tomorrow when and if I can sleep in.
**Afternoon update - Feeling a tad better now that I'm at home. Sorry to be so bleak this morning. I just wasn't feeling that great early on. Time to work on some more photos. At least I have that to keep me busy - and I do enjoy the work!
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Hang in there. I think you're really about halfway through this stuff, maybe more. Remember you had gout for 15 years undiagnosed, it's going to take some time for the crystals to get out of the joints.
ReplyDeleteThe weather is going to be crap everywhere this weekend, so it would have been a little bit of a bummer to be in the rain in France and mess up all the pictures and being outside.
I'd rather have you feel better and no pain than unable to walk around.
I Love You.
Nate, if anyone understands and feels with you, it is ME/I. I am completing 8 months of not going anywhere, except to the computer, the bed, and/or ST John. I have done food shopping once a month, including seeing two doctors once.
ReplyDeleteIt helps having someone to talk to and receiving empathy.
I did one other thing, I hadn't done for years: finding some interesting, attention grabbing books, like (for me) mysteries, crimis, adventures, etc., same for some TV/Netflix movies. That took my mind off my dilemma. It might work for you, too.
Remember, you can't fight Mother Nature, so you might as well try to cooperate with Her.
Thanks for the kind words :) I am feeling a bit better now that I'm at home. I don't mean to bitch and moan too much, it's just some days are like that every now and then.
ReplyDeleteAny book recommendations, Hans? I love to read and am out of good books. I just ordered a few from Amazon and they should be here soon. I read a variety of stuff, so any suggestions would be appreciated!
Have a good weekend!
Nate, here is the first installment:
ReplyDeleteDan Brown- Deception Point
" " - Angels and Demons
" " - Da Vinci Code
Margret Truman- Murder in the Supreme Court
" " - " " " Smithsonian
" " - " " " so & so (3-4 more)
More to follow!
Second installment:
ReplyDeleteJonathan Kellerman - Over the Edge
Nicholas Sparks - A Bend in the Road
John Grisham - The Testament
" " - A Time to Kill
Lawrence Sanders - Capital Crimes
Val McDermid - A Place of Execution
Have fun.